Moving, Mentors and Truth

Its about time to move into our new house and i am feeling a bunch of feelings about moving. I am excited to move and start something new i am also feeling sad i have lived in the same house for 10 years and tho some of those years have brought pain and hurt in that house i have learned many lessons and have grown deeper in God. This house represents where god met with me in the lowest times in my life and met with me in the happiest times of my life. This new house is so different from the house we are moving from its alot bigger but somehow my room is smaller. Thats about it about moving. I am starting a new chapter with moving, mentors and truth. My mentors have been such a blessing over the last few weeks as i have met with them and shared my heart and felt truly safe. i am learning what it means to truly accept what safe looks like and what it means to be who god is calling me to be. i am truly hungry for truth and everything that comes along with that. i am coming to real grips that i am a daughter of the lord most high that he choose me and that he has a real plan for my life. The summer is here and i so look forward to all that god has planned for me through the VYC Internship. so till next time stand in who u are !!

Things Hit Right Between The Eyes

So today was one of those messages at church where u leave feeling wow that was just what i needed. Maybe it was the people that sat around you, the worship u just needed to hear or the overall message. Today was all three as i sat near close friends that have walked with me through a lot of heavy things in my life. The worship that spoke something brand new into my heart or the message that spoke to a whole new room in my house of my heart. Rooms of my heart have had makeovers and complete demos but today i discovered there are more rooms then i ever cared to see. Maybe a room that has had a secret door where another room awaits healing and the discovery of whats rooted deep in the corner. Today as i sit and try and process through some stuff that is in those deep corners i discover i have been given eyes to truly see whats in there. the old me would have seen whats in there and said no way close that door way to messy. But here i am and i see what the mess is and say god have your way in this room and remodel and restore the broken. i see more then ever today that i have been stuck because i have opened this door before and closed the door because it was to shameful to look at and what i have been up to, but today i stand and say enough i want god and all that he has for me even if that means i am messy. god would never bring me through something if he didnt first prepare the way for me. I stand in the truth of who i am today a little bit stronger.

Just Living For the day

Peacemaker, Fear Taker, Soul Soother, Storm Smoother
Light Shiner, Lost Finder, Cloud Lifter, Deliverer,
Heart Toucher, Truth Lover,
Who other could be Fear Taker, Peacemaker to me,

Mind Clearer, Sigh Healer, Hand Holder, Consolor,
Wound Binder, Tear Dryer, Strength Giver, Provider,
Heart Healer, Kind Father,
Who other could be, My Savior, Peacemaker to me,
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/g/greg_ferguson/peace_maker.html ]
Let Your Peace Rule in my heart,
Let Your kindness fill my thoughts,
Let Your strength secure my soul,
Let Your peace take hold in me,
Let Your Wisdom guide my will,
Your compassion fill this place,
Let my anxious thoughts be still,
Let Your peace rule in my Heart,

[Chorus]
I need You,
(Let Your Peace Rule in my heart, )
I need You,
(Let Your kindness fill my thoughts, )
I need You,
(Let Your strength secure my soul, )
In My Life Lord,
(Let Your peace take hold in me, )
I Trust You,
(Let Your Wisdom guide my will, )
Believe You,
(Your compassion fill this place, )
I need You.
(Let my anxious thoughts be still, )
Lord, in my Life I Know
(Let Your peace rule in my Heart, )

(Repeat Chorus)

Heart Toucher, Truth Lover
Who other could be, Fear Taker, Peacemaker to me

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So this song has been on my favorite playlist for about 3 years now and every time it plays i really stop and it brings me back to where i first heard this song. It was a retreat that i went on and this is one if the reflection songs that played on repeat for a long time maybe thats why i can sing all the words without the music. There a just a few songs that i feel that have changed my life and this is for sure one of them. I know a lot of the things that god is but when hearing this song it made me actually feel the things that are my father. As i walk through different seasons of my life and see how faithful God has been this song plays and i just have to say thank you to him that holds my life.